So you get to know yourself? I mean, really getting to know everything? I wish.
I keep surprising myself sometimes. Mostly bad surprises. Lately.
I've been passing trough a lot, and never tought that I could react like I did. Can find excuses, or justify my behavior, but most of the times I don't like it. I want things to change.
I want to stop being alone. That too. And there's no much chances to change that right now.
I wish I could go back in some things. I wish I could trust more, again. I wish I could say things out loud as I did before. But I find myself fearful, trustless. I don't want to be hurted again. Means that that I will build a wall surrounding me? Maybe I've started already.
Things went wrong. So wrong. The worst part is that we all saw it coming. But no one said a word. Maybe we talked, and we reached a point were we couldn't say anything else. Just to wait and see this coming. And it hurts even more, we don't want to say "we told you" and we can't be there to change things either. Mistakes are bad decisions we make, that come with painful consequences.
We have to learn to move forward. In every sense, because if you stop, you die. Sometimes you don't even have time to rest, to recover. Just have to keep moving. And hope time will fix everything.
And sometimes, time betrays you.
de rAnita nOe
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